It looks like I have found work, it is not glamours although I enjoy it. That work is custodial work and prepping food at Mc Donalds. The crew is good to me and management treats me well. I can’t complain about it at all. Just need to get more hours, but hey I figure it will come with time. Receiving thanks and gratitude from co workers and guest can bring a happiness to me. Sometimes almost tears come as well, just to grateful I can earn money and bring people happiness, that is what I want to do. See people smile from things that are done or given by me. To me that happiness is gratitude enough for me to live in a happy state. Sure the work is hard and there is language barrier but it is worth it to me. To see smiles and people relaxing just for a while.
How the job was landed was through Mom being a regular their and a caring Store manager. The manager has high standards this I know she is good with her crew though. Mom always goes there and sees to it the crew is at ease and happy as well. She is this way with a lot of people. So I am thankful to her. Then there is Lily, the Succubus or spiritual partner that is in my life. I wonder if she had anything to do with this. Maybe so, I did ask her for help in finding something and I am now working and happy. Still not earning enough to live alone, but that will come in time I know this for sure if not then there are friends, shelters, streets and wisdom of others to follow. I am not afraid to fail anymore, just another thing to lose in the end.
Why think that way, because Lily is here and I love her so. Even now she gives me something that is good and I cannot explain it all. It just is good. I want to see to she is happy, she is and I are number one on the list of people I love the most. This shared through her and friends. Keep myself at number one and the rest at number two. Just something that took forever for friends to covey to me and sink in. With the help of Lily it was done. I looked into her eyes and many philosophies and religions out there along with traditions. I am finding truth lies within and not with others or words of a book, but your way of thought and practice alone. That is true to you alone as the reader and writer.
This where I suggest as person and someone who wants you to be happy. To let go or loosen your grasp on religion and tradition practiced by groups of large or small. Make something that is yours. Take a risk, believe in what you want. Let others flow by you and take what you as right like fish from a river. Those fish will help you grow and open your mind to see clear picture of yourself and life.
My apologies for the long wait if you did wait for post by me and for stepping on anyone’s toes in this post. During my period of silence my feet were trampled by people and trust broken by a friend, although I should have known better to share my thoughts with him. He is a close minded fool with a open trap door for a mouth.
Thanks for reading,