I have found that “she” is not happy with me withholding my wants and needs from myself. By that I mean my effort to cut myself from porn all together. We should enjoy our hobbies and not be obsessed with them sure enough, “she” enjoys it with me as it seems. Thus, yesterday or so I told myself and her I will follow the path she laid out for me and keep up practices that are laid out for me and only me. Taking in what others say with a grain of salt and study look into what they say or offer me deeper. No this is not to say that I dig all porn in fact I prefer softer aspect of the so called porn industry. I enjoy doing a little research I can about the actress and company that interest me. Although companies have been going more and more hardcore which is fine the audience may prefer and I do not pay them so I cannot say much about it.
Now that I shared that I am free from this chain once again, I must state something about a certain person that claims a lot and maybe true or not this person still should understand we all are connected to Lilith or Mother earth or any name the female goddess falls under in your belief. You Kuro, did make a threat to those that are connect with Lilith even a lover like yourself. Even though some of these folks may not care. Do understand you have also threaten Lilith’s daughters and sons that are with the folks you have threatened as well. Do you think Lilith is happy with that, I am not. Although I will do nothing else than point that out and now ignore what you claim Kuro think me a fool and ignorant and closed minded I do not care. For I believe in something as others believe in something else. We all are individuals with different beliefs, pasts, thoughts, environments, and systems of society etc.
For those of wishing not to have read I am sorry I have to get that out of my system.
Also, the day I made my choice to chase my needs and wants I had a dream of a woman inviting me into a pool in her backyard. My conscious self had a choice and me being me declined but slowly was being pulled in by her invitations and form. She was very beautiful is all I can say really, my dreams are clear in thought but my image is not clear. It very abstract and that is fine by me for that dream I was given choice and have fun being in her company. Was a first for me, other dreams in the past showed me lessons or a story I could not make out and not give me a choice to act on or pick.
Thanks for reading,